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Name: Trisha M
Country: Canada
State: Ontario
Metro: Toronto
Birthday: 5/26/1986
Gender: Female
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| W O W!!
*blows dust off my weblog*
It's been ages since I have been on Xanga. Yes AGES - the last time I logged on here, I was 22 and now I'm back on here again, I'm a year older! YAY! It's amazing how life works! The last time I logged on here was April 6 and I recall I was getting ready for my trip to California and that it was still snowing!
Now I'm back here again, and summer has already passed. I'm 23 years old who celebrated her birthday to it's fullest with special people, went to California and travelled around with my siblings, spent the whole summer with her 16 years old cousin from Lancaster, Pennsylvania! Who also went to the beaches, cottages, baseball games, spending time with her friends. Now I'm sitting here wondering where the heck summer went already?!
My sister has returned home!!! After 9+ years out of the country, she's finally home. She graduated with her masters in mental health at Gallaudet and was offered a full time job with CHS (Canadian Hearing Society) as a mental health counsellor in Hamilton. Of course she took the offer after she was done with her internship in San Diego, California. Seeing that she has been gone away from the family and friends too long - she needed to come home. Also, it was just the easiest decision for her. Getting a "working visa" is hard these days and suppose she wasn't accepted to get one, she would have lost her offer with CHS and then who knows where she would be working? I also could see it in her that she was missing home. She was "drifting" from the family and it was just werid. We had a surprise congraduation party for her a couple of weeks ago - it went well. After having that party, it has hit me that she's now here to stay. Unless some crazy idea comes across her to move somewhere on the other side of Earth! *smiles* I'm really glad she's home, now I think we have the chance to really connect as sisters and make up for what we lost growing up, not just 9 years. I'm looking forward to that!
Life has been peachy on my end lately. I admit, a sour peachy-like. Not perfect and sweet but not the bittery sour kind. I had my ups and down, am still having it. Nothing's perfect, yet. Don't really think a perfect life will ever happen in my lifetime BUT it'd be nice if things were going "right" on my end. I'm still struggling to find a place where I call "home". Lately I have been spending time at my friend, Veronica's - I must tell ya, I think Im starting to find it somewhere there. I have been starting to feel more positive lately (Don't want to jinx it) and I see myself setting up goals and feeling the need to follow them. I'd really like to see myself getting a job or going back to school this year. I would like to at least accomplish something and be proud of myself regardless what anybody else thinks.
I've decided and I believe I declared the idea at my birthday party that this year, will be all about me. I am going to focus on myself and myself only. Work on things that I have not got the chance to for a long time. There are issues I'm still struggling with and I really feel I need to get pass that. My heart aches, it's been heartbroken for so long - it needs to be healed and get fixed up. I really want to find myself happy and who knows, strong enough to love someone again. I would really like that.
I honestly don't really know what to share on here, although I feel I'm so behind and feels the need to update. I'd really like to blog more, but I could never know who's really reading my sh*t. I never really get any "comments" and whenever I do, its like a shock to me! LOL! I feel I should be blogging on here because there are some certian people who I hardly see or talk to, who lives like 8 hrs away from me *ahem, u know who u are* - this is a way to keep myself "updated" with what goes on in my life.
Well, I couldn't sleep tonight - felt like blogging would put me to sleep. It's almost 4am, WAYYY past my bedtime! I really should hit the sack. I'll be around to blog some more - keep posted for more blogs! :)
GoodNight World!
OX.
*EDIT* Oh yeah, I forgot how I used to pick a song I was obessed with before and posted their lyrics.
Here's one song this week
"Stay" By Sugarland.
i been sittin' here staring
at the clock on the wall
and i been layin here praying
praying she won't call
it's just another call from home
and you'll get it and be gone
and i'll be crying
and i'll be beggin you baby
beg you not to leave
but i'll be left here waiting
with my heart on my sleeve
oh for the next time we'll be here
seems like a million years
and i think i'm dying
what do i have to do to make you see
she can't love you like me
why dont you stay
im down on my knees
im so tired of being lonely
don't i give you what you need
when she calls you will go
there is one thing you should know
we dont have to live this way
baby why dont you stay
you keep telling me baby
there will come a time
when you will leave her arms
and forever be in mine
but i don't think that's the truth
and i don't like being used
and i'm tired of waiting
it's too much pain to have to bear
to love a man you have to share
why dont you stay
im down on my knees
im so tired of being lonely
don't i give you what you need
when she calls you will go
there is one thing you should know
we dont have to live this way
baby why dont you stay
i can't take it any longer
but my will is getting stronger
and i think i know just what i have to do
i can't waste another minute
after all that i've put in it
i've given you my best
why does she get the best of you
so the next time you find
you wanna leave her bed for mine
why dont you stay
im up off my knees
im so tired of being lonely
you cant give me what i need
when she begs you not to go
there is one thing you should know
i dont have to live this way
baby why dont you stay
yeah yeah oh oh oh oha oh
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| Today's April 6, and we STILL have snow. It's unbelievable. :( When will we have our spring? The weather has been up and down like mother nature's experiencing bipolar or something. Guess we gotta let it deal with it's own issues before the sun and roses comes out :)
Anyways, since my last entry - I have been doing well. Same thing everyday, dealing with life and trying to fulfill it as much as I can :) I have been really preparing myself for my trip in 16 days! I can't really wait! This is something my brother and I need to do because I don't think there will ever be the next time we will do this, my sister is graduating and by then she'd be in the working world and hopefully she'd start a family by then etc. We'd be too old to do anything like this. LOL.
I bought a new camera last week, within 4 days it cracked :( the battery part cracked and boy was I feeling unmotivated to keep this camera so I went back and exchanged it to another brand because I wasn't feeling comfortable. So hopefully this camera will be a good use while I'm gone away traveling! :) I'll be sure to post pictures :) I promise! :)
Ok, Im gonna go and download some songs onto my ipod because I want to get it all done before I leave for my trip. :) Ill be back soon n blog some more.:)
-T
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| It was everyone's spring break last week (SOME human beings who are currently in school lol) and I'm going to say I think I really need a break from spring break alright! :P Last week my little sister Amy was off school all week. So we, the family got to do things together and unbelievable the weather was JUST right! There's a lot to say I think in this blog, so I'm going to try and memorize it all in order with what has been happening with me since the last time I blogged. (March 12th) :P
March 13th - I went to an ice hockey game, watched 2 deaf teams played and O M G, one of the team did a B I G improvement I'm telling you. They wiped the game out well and there was a lot of teamwork. They won the game of course. I truly enjoyed myself that night. = * * * *
March 15th- DQ night, (Dairy Queen) O M G lately I have been craving and making trips to DQ with my friend. We would personally book days and go. I'm obsessed with Banana Cream Pie Blizzard - I recommend everyone to try before saying E W :) It's actually good. Isn't too heavy. I remember in high school I was always obessed with Oreo Blizzard because I just couldn't try new ice cream, i didnt want to waste my time and money trying new icecreams so I stook with one. Until Banana Creme came out - I dont know what changed my mind, but hey i did it. ANYWAYS, please if u see DQ and u got 4 bucks (cdn fund) pull over and get yourself a medium banana cream pie blizzard. = * * * * *
March 16th - A new joy was born - Amiela Rohenee Turner was born at 7:23pm, 6 pounds and 13 ounces. A good friend of mine from high school, Tasha and her boyfriend Sjon has a new baby girl now. When I heard she was giving birth and when she posted pictures on facebook - I cried. It's exciting knowing when someone is having a child into their life, its a new journey for them. I truly believe they will be great parents regardless any rough times they may face, they will get through, they are strong. I reaallly need to get my butt over there and meet this baby. This baby is going to know me well because hey - Auntie Trishie is here! ;) = * * * * *
March 17th - I had my very very very first vaginal ultrasound. Y E S, it may be TMI but hey - it was a very uncomfortable experience for me. I was suppose to be there for 11:40am and drink 35-45 oz of water (it says on the paper) So I calcuated it was around 2 water bottles, so i thought naw I'll drink 3 water bottles instead (B I G mistake) I arrived there, and this old woman seem very snotty and didnt really welcome me there. She just gave me the paperish gown and told me to "strip" in this little cubby thing. I went in and took off my pants and put the paper gown over me, it was a little small - I ammmm a large woman so not EVERYTHING is suitable for overweight people - sheesh society these days, not everybody weights 100 pounds. Anyways, as soon as I opened the drapes, there was a man sitting right infront of me and I freaked. like H E L L O they can see my you-know-what. but whatever, I went in this room and she had me laying down. She did a normal ultrasound first and told me that I did not drink enough water - excuse me? 3 isnt enough? oookay so, she asked me to walk around a little bit and come back when I need to pee. I decided to go upstairs and get my blood test finish then I'll come back down. ANOTHER big mistake - Since i arrived the blood test a little bit after 12, I had to do only the afternoon blood work and come back another day for the morning test. OH whatever! So, after my blood test they asked me to do an urine work - I was like, um I can't really pee in the cup right now because I'm doing an ultrasound downstairs in a few minutes. So I had to go back upstairs as soon as I was done the ultrasound. I went back downstairs, a sign says "Out for lunch, back at 1:30" U G H. Immature people honestly. Fine, Grandma and I went to pizza pizza for lunch and I was ready to piss everywhere there. I had to pee sooo bad but I wasnt allowed to. I drank more water so that way it would actually work LOL. We went back and YAY! went in for the normal ultrasound. It worked then the snotty lady asked me to pee it all out, but i forgot about peeing it in the cup because my grandma had the cup in the lobby with my purse. So I went ahead and peed anyways - i JUST had to go. After I was done, the snotty lady asked me to lay down again - I was puzzled. So I laid down and shortly she just quickly just pushed something cold and long into my vagina. I was in shocked because she gave me no warning or whatever. Like honestly, I'm deaf? Please! respect! The way she was doing it, was VERY uncomfortable and it was hurting a lot. I started to have anxiety there and just wanted to leave. After she was done, I went upstairs to pee however I couldnt. Had to drink like 3 more water bottles and walked around in Value Village for an hour and FINALLY I could go. So, How many water bottles did i drink all day? 7 - S E V E N!!!!! So yeah, I was in and out the washroom like every half hour alllll night. Im telling you, vaginal ultrasound? never again! = *
March 18th - I went to Wizard World with my step family. It was actually fun. It's like going to the CNE in the summer time, but only this time it's for spring break and for families who has no plans or only has one day during the week to take their kid/s somewhere. Wizard World was down at the Exhibition Place in Toronto. It had all these magic shows, petting zoo, rides, bouncy things and even a small area for toodlers. A W E! <3 I e njoyed myself with my 2 little sisters and it's a great way to wear them out for bed ;) = * * * * *
March 19th - My grandma had companies from Hamilton visiting us, I ve known them practically all my life and it was great seeing them again. They came all afternoon and stayed for supper. Had a nice time however I wish it was a short visit because I was exhausted. = * * *
March 20th - I went to Ice Hockey again to watch 2 teams, again I enjoyed myself. However i still can't believe I was sittin there all night bickering with a few older people and it was just U G H. It was fun tho. I would elaborate more but with respect I believe they would like their names disclosed. :):) = * * * *
March 21st - I went to ASL club with Joey. It was at Molly Bloom's again this year and I had a great time. The dance floor was P A C K E D and sweaty! E W! The windows can't open, and no A C? O M G, we all were complaining however I think most of us had a good time. I was out until 4am! :) = * * * * *
March 22nd - My Grandma's birthday dinner, we had Chinese food and we had a nice time but I was exhausted from the busy week and was hoping for peace! :( = * * *
W O W, I think i had a few busy days and with my health being like this - Im surprised I managed to get thru. I'm going to try and relax because in a few weeks - Im flying to C A L I F O R N I A! Yes yes, I already bought my ticket. Am going to visit my sister for a week then we are going to roadtrip to DC intime for her graduation. I changed my mine earlier not to go, but of course she begged me out of it and asked me to come because it was her graduation gift for us all to be other. We havent excatly been spending time the past few years. I feel this is something I need to do.
Whew. I dont know what else to update but right now i have to log off. My papa's calling me and i should go. Ill be back to update a lyric soon that I ve been obessing about! :):)
Nite!
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Ugh. I'm sick again. It really sucks being sick. I have been sick like almost 5 times just this past winter season. It's brutal. I have never realized that being sick does really strain my energy down and I completely lose focus in my life. Yesterday I spent like all day and all night in bed. I had no energy and my bones were aching all over. I was SO lazy to even walk to the washroom, I held it for awhile but the longer I waited - l o l, it felt like it was going to burst. Today I still didn't feel motivated to do anything, but I made some effort to go and visit my grandmother.
My Great Grandmother fell yesterday in her small apartment, stupid rug. I have always told her to take away the rug, it's going to hurt one day. However it just didn't hurt, it broke her arm and she has 7 stitches on her face. She arrived home late last night, and was in a lot of pain all day. She's 94 years old and it amazes me how she's still alive after all these times she was brought to the hospital. One of her friend a few months ago, fell, broke her neck and died. It's just scary to even hear whenever shes in the hospital. I love her.
I haven't felt SO productive since I have made it my 2009's personal goal. Although I have moved around and finished some projects I had to do for a while now. I helped out with ODSA ball hockey like I said I would. Now I'm helping with the VM play. (psst: it's in april, come watch). I made efforts to understand the bible. I finally started working on my Income Tax that I havent done for years, and also I finally went to the doctor's last week and shcudled to see doctor next week for pelvic ultrasound. (will explain more about it later). it's only the 3rd month in 2009 - so I shouldn't feel so gulity!:)
My next goal for this month is to start performing again, help out with more deaf organizations, finsh my resume so I can look for a job, attending to Doctor's and Counselling appointments, finish my Income Tax, figure out about Cali/DC trip and finish my Poetry book. :)
Anyways, the song I'm obessed with today issss.....
Dead and Gone - by Justin Timberlake (drools) and T.I :)
Chorus:
(Justin Timberlake):
Ooooooo
I've been travelin
On this road to long
Just trying to find
My way back home
The old me
Is dead and gone
Dead and gone
Ooooooo
I've been travelin
On this road to long
Just trying to find
My way back home
The old me
Is dead and gone
Dead and gone
(T.I.)
Ever had one of dem days
U wish woulda stayd home
Run into a group of niggas
Getting they hate on
U walk by
They get wrong u reply
Then shit get blown
Way outta proportion
Way past discussion
Just u against them,
Pick one then rush em
Figure u get your hair?
That next
They don't wanna stop
There now they bussin
Now u gushin, ambulance
Rushin u to the hospital
With a bad concussion
Plus ya hit 4 times
Plus it hit ya
Spine paralyzed waist down
Now ya wheel chair bound
Nevermind that now
U lucky to be alive,
Just think it all started u
Fussin with 3 guys
Now ya pride in the way
But ya pride is the way u
Could fuck around
Get shot die anyday
Niggas die
Every day all over
Bull shit dope money dice
Game ordinary hood shit
Could this be
Cuz of hip hop music
Or did the ones
With the good sense
Not use it
Usually niggas
Don't kno what to do
When their back
Against the wall
So they just start shootin
For red or for blue
Or for blo I guess,
From Bankhead
Or from your projects
No more stress,
Now I'm straight,
Now I get it now I take
Time to think,
Before I make mistakes
Just for my familys sake
That part of me left yesterday
The heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say
The old me dead and gone away.
(Chorus)
(T.I.)
I aint never been scared,
I lived through tragedy
Situation coulda been dead
Lookin back at it
Most of that shit
Didn't even have to happen
But u don't think about it
When u out there trappin
In apartments hangin
Smokin and rappin
Niggas start shit didn't
Next thing ya kno we cappin
Get locked up
Then didn't even get mad
Now think about damn
What a life I had
Most of that shit
Look back just laugh
Some shit
Still look back just sad
Maybe my homboy
Till be around
Had I not
Hit the nigga
In the mouth that time
I won that fight, I lost that war
I can still see my nigga
Walkin out that door
Whoda thought I'd never see
Philant no more
Got enough dead homies
I don't want no more
Cost a nigga his job,
Cost me more
Ida took that ass-whoopin
Now for sure
Now think before I risk my life
Take them chances to get my stripe
A nigga put his hands on me alright
Otherwise stand there
Talk shit all night
Cuz I hit you, you sue me,
I shoot you, get locked up, who me?
No more stress, now I'm straight,
Now I get it now I take
Time to think
Before I make mistakes
Just for my familys sake
That part of me left yesterday
The heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say
The old me dead and gone away.
(Chorus)
(J.T.)
I turn my head to the east
I don't see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west
Still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north,
Swallow that pill
That they call pride
The old me is dead and gone,
The new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east
I don't see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west
Still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north,
Swallow that pill
That they call pride
The old me is dead and gone,
The new me will be alright
(Chorus)
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| Here's how you play: Copy the questions and indicate the things that you have done.
The things I have done are in bold.
1. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
2. Swam with wild dolphins
3. Climbed a mountain
4. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
5. Been inside the Great Pyramid
6. Held a tarantula
7. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
8. Said "I love you" and meant it
9. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon (someday, someday)
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had/Have amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign (witnessed it, not engaged in one)
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan (a stayover count?)
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your cds
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie (home movie count?)
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the snake river
82. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in a Rocky Horror Picture Show
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Broken a bone
113. Gone on an African photo safari
114. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
115. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
116. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
117. Ridden a horse
118. Had major surgery
119. Had a snake as a pet
120. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
121. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
122. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
123. Visited all 7 continents
124. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
125. Eaten kangaroo meat
126. Eaten sushi
127. Had your picture in the newspaper
128. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
129. Gone back to school
130. Parasailing
131. Touched a cockroach
132. Eaten fried green tomatoes
133. Read "The Iliad"
134. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
135. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
136. Skipped all your school reunions
137. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
138. Been elected to public office
139. Written your own computer language
140. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
141. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
142. Built your own PC from parts
143. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
144. Had a booth at a street fair
145. Dyed your hair
146. Been a DJ
147. Shaved your head
148. Caused a car accident
149. Saved someone's life | | |
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